I didn't think, before I came, that I would be sad to leave. I thought that I would be ready to go home and see my home and family and don't get me wrong, I am. I really can't wait to see my sister and dad for the first time in 5 months, but I definitely feel like I am leaving a part of me here in France as well. I'm leaving what, for the past 5 months, has been my home. It's crazy to think that, because I moved houses right before I came here, I have lived in my French home longer than my American one. I feel like a part of me will always be stuck in the middle, in the gray area. I will always be missing someplace or another. When I try to explain this to people, they all say the same thing: "You can always go back!" This is true. I'm not arguing. I'll be back as soon as possible. The thing is, it will never be the same. Yes, I can come back and see my friends and family, but I will never be 15 and studying abroad in France ever again. Every time I think, "Wow, I'd really like to be home right now", I contradict myself, saying that when I'm back and in my regular routine, I know I will miss the days when I would take the train to visit Conner in Rennes or when I would take off to explore the South of France with my friends or when I would sit around the dinner table, cracking jokes with my host family.
These are the things you don't think about when you leave for a study abroad. You don't think about the middle and then all the goodbyes you'll have to say that will break your heart over and over and over again. I know my experiences and memories from these 5 months in France will stay with me for my entire life.
Cecilia
La classe 2nde6
Coucou ma Cecilia
ReplyDeleteJe retombe sur ton blog que j’e n’ai pa lu depuis ton départ il y a plus de deux
Je ne peux retenir mes larmes, car le temps passe vite et cet océan entre nous, nous éloigne par la distance et par le cœur
Tu as maintenant une vie d’etudiante Dans ton université de washington et c’est super
j’ai un petit pincement au cœur car nous aussi t’avoir à nos côtés pendant cette période a été forte tu t’es enormenent confiée à moi et j’espere Et moi également je t’ai considéré comme mon quatrième enfants
Lle temps est difficile à arrêter, j’espere Qu’on se révéra très vite
comme tu dis cela ne sera pas comme quand tu avais 15 ans tu es devenue une femme maintenant , ici aussi les enfants ont grandis très vite et tu ne retrouveras pas les petits gamins de ton séjours
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